Reflecting on the Holidays
Me? I used to love the holidays. Our family is huge and leans heavily towards the crazy side. 🙂 In the best ways, of course! I love them and are grateful we are tied together.
Our holiday gatherings used to pack the house. The years have seen the children grow, the traditions change, and the holiday gatherings grow smaller and smaller. As immediate nuclear families grow, so does the desire to stay within our own little circles. So too, many have moved further away prohibiting huge clan gatherings. Many have passed as well.
To the chagrin of some, I have found less joy in some holidays. Thanksgiving is one. Although I am thankful for much, Thanksgiving is one of the holidays which remind me of my late sister Lulu. She loved almost every holiday and went full-tilt in planning and decorating! She loved to cook and always put out a fantastic spread.
She has quite the vivacious personality. Her laughter rang so loud you could distinguish it from one hundred others. Her sarcasm was biting, but her love was deep. We were lucky to have her. For all that, and more, I am grateful. If I could have one thing I do not, it would be to have her back.
Back to Reality
Since I cannot have this, I have chosen to focus on the tangible things in my life I am happy to have. My children are number one. Oh, they can be royal pains at times, but they are good, decent people. I am very proud of them all.
I am grateful for clarity of mind. Most of the time this is true anyway!
Happily, I have healthy, amazing grandchildren that crack me up, hold my hand, and say the sweetest things with complete sincerity.
My journal. Yup, I am grateful for this non-animate item. It keeps me sane and organized - most of the time!
I am grateful my mother's sister, the matriarch of the family is alive and well, not to mention a class act. And, I love how caring, smart, and so very funny she is. She is another with a distinctive laugh. You cannot help but join when you hear it ring out.
Gratefulness fills me when I think of the friends I have had since I was a child that are still active in my life. They are my family too as I could not love them more if we were related.
I am filled with thanks that my children are all self-sufficient and have found partners that love them dearly. Also, that they are living productive lives with great futures in store.